i wrote a post, and people react

whatever i wrote here, is my own concern and conscience
why you bother so much
and hate me for whatever that i wrote

i wrote about my life!
my dislikes
my aspiration
my journey

who cares about my grammar
who cares on how i write

who cares about being judged

but to hear it from someone who told me to let go the past
and just use it for the sake of improving one-self
is sad

plainly

sad.

p/s: you (you know who you are) get my facts all twisted.

road to November

21.8.2012 - Jonker Walk

 

rasa nk pengsan sat.. my very first love just contact me for his restaurant openning this Nov!!

 

I supposedly to type this status down at my fb, tapi terasa poyo and malas pulak menimbulkan kontroversi.. eh, bajet artis! poyo and sereyesly not cool ok, phoenix! jadi, aku delete dan terus merangka kat blog neh. at least, nak perasan pun biar aku sorang aje.

 

Sebenarnya, rasa tak percaya sangat yang dia akan contact aku. For all I know, the reason yang i kept holding back to contact him is that our last meeting does not ends well. And when i tried to contact him, it was all too late and i couldn't find any trace of him.

 

10 years now. Oh yes, i have moving on.

 

Yupp, 10 years since our last meeting. i knew, the girl that he knew back then was far different from who i am now. No longer the person with 110% confidence level. No longer the person with a clear vision of what is wrong and what is right.

 

At present, my mind is clouded here and there. Confidence is at stake level. Life... hmm, under construction.

 

There is so many reason for me to see you, not because i want you back or something like that. I'm just hoping to see you for good old times sake. To seek forgiveness for whatever harms i've caused you. and yes, to meet and congratulate the lucky women who wears your ring.

 

And yes, i miss "me".

 

And i sincerely hope to find the lost "me" when i see you. or at least to be remind of. that would be nice. :)

 

So, dear you (which i don't think that you'll be ever read this), i am eager to see you. sincerely. not because you introduces me to Bob Marley- No Women No Cry, or Superman by Foo Fighters, or even Alicia Keys-A Woman's Worth.

 

No my dear. i want to see you so that i can pick up all the good things that i've forever forgotten. and to build up a better me, insyaAllah.

 

"Sorry for sending this email to your company account. It's the only way that I can think of one right now. See you when I see you."

  

So, don't feel sorry.

 

Thank you for sending the mail instead! :) 

UPDATE on 11/1/2013;
p/s: this post is never intended to harm anyone's feeling. This is written based on my feelings at that point of time. and let me highlight it for the benefit of all.. i wrote this post as to express how life has turn me into somewhat i am not a few years back. and no, i didnt meet him..not the proposed day of his restaurant openning..not now.. and i dont even know whether i will ever meet him again. life is full of surprises..and that is the beauty of it! cheers :)   

monolog si ego dan si bodoh sombong

aku nak tulis bagaimanapun, itu hak aku.
ini adalah buku catitan aku.
ini hak aku.
tak kisahlah kisah benar atau kisah tak berapa benar.
itu hak aku.
biarlah sedih, suka ataupun ntah ape-ape.
itu hak aku.

eh, kau ni dah kenapa?

itu hak aku!

whatever!

#30) Songkhla the Southern of Thailand (overland) PART ONE~ 14-15 July 2012

Salam.. this time around aku ke Thailand again!! yeayy!!

We've decided to go Hadnyai for a weekend trip just when the clock hit 5.00pm on that Friday evenning. Yup, an unplanned trip as usual for me and cik Tree. :)

 

Jam tepat pukul 6.00pm aku pun cabut daripada ofis macam lipas kudung. Straight to MPH beli guidebook to Thailand. Feeling2 peserta eksplorace, aku ngn Cik Tree bergegas balik and packing barang.

 

Nekad. Kalau takde bas ke Thailand, kitorang ke Pulau Kapas. 9.30pm kami berlari (yup, literally!) dari Putra ke Stesen LRT untuk terus ke Puduraya. Naik train dlm pukul 9.45, sampai Puduraya berlari ke kaunter.

 

muka penat berlari

Malangnya, tiket ke Hatnyai dah pun sold out!! Sedih. Tiba-tiba dirapati oleh seorang manusia (later baru aku tahu org ini adalah ulat) yang bertanyakan destinasi kami. Being me, aku terus tarik cik Tree, tapi sempat jugak cik Tree bagitahu destinasi kami.. terus si ulat naik daun lah.. hehe.. Tak kisahlah, ulat pun ulat lah, janji aku dapat tiket bas. Pukul 10.04pm aku dah bersandar kelegaan dapat tiket bas. Kalo masuk eksplorace ni, ada potensi besar jadi juara nih!

eksaited dapat tiket bas jugak!

Tapi, memanglah dasar si ulat. Tiket cakap (tiket cakap??!!) pukul 12.00am, bas datang pukul 1.15am++. Mana tak macam cacing kepanasan aku kerisauan? Kos tiket adalam RM55/person.

Masuk bas, selamat bas selesa.. Bas Konsortium, seat besarrr... hihi.. apelagi, tido la! Bukak mata, je utk pi toilet. Bukak mata lagi sekali pit stop untuk breakfast di Bukit Kayu Hitam lebih kurang pukul 7.30am.! Usai makan, terus ke ofis tukaran mata wang (money exchanger) untuk tukarkan nota RM kami ke Bath.  

breakfast

Bas bergerak kembali. Kami tiba di border lebih kurang 8.30, tapi hanya lepas ke Danok pukul 9.00am. trafik luar biasa. Untuk mempercepatkan urusan, teller kami meminta kami memasukkan nota RM10 dalam passport.. Mule2 aku nk melenting, tapi melihatkan lautan manusia yg beratur tanpa kesudahan tu, aku hulurkan la jugak... kononnya customary practice, a bribe is still a bribe right? Katalah, aku sorang je nk boikot tunjuk rasa, mau ditinggalkan aje aku kat situ.. err.. haihhh....

jem!

Sampai je di bumi Hatnyai, aku n Cik Tree terus book tiket balik also vide Konsortium. Yang untungnya beli direct, harga tiket hanyalah 400B/person (equals to around RM40 only). Dari stesen bas, kami ada jugak tanya kalau-kalau mahu sewa motosikal, deposit sahaja 1500B, tapi sewa sehari dalam 20-30B. Dek kerana ini misi bajet, kami membatalkan aja niat tadi dan terus sewa tuktuk ke Gam Yoong Market (market terbesar kat Hatnyai katenyerr).

her first tuk tuk ride i guest..

tuk tuk

Setengah jam perjalanan, dengan harga 30B/pax dari stesen bas ke Market. Perut lapar. Jam sudah menunjukkan 12.00pm++. Jalan punya jalan, kami eksplore wet market. Memang menu eksotik. Loya pulak tekak aku. Jalan-jalan dengan harapan jumpa makanan muslim. Nmpak makcik pakai tudung, aku yakinkan aje hati ni untuk beli lunch. Untuk 2 org, kami hanya spend 60B utk lunch. :)

Gim Yoong Market

fresh foods

fresh...err frogs anyone?

kura-kura??

lipas-licious!

Dan semestinyalah seperti selalu, makanan aku lagi ohsem daripada cik Tree.. kuikuikui...

lunch break

mine!

Cik Tree's nasi beriani

Pukul 1.00pm, setelah berdiskusi, aku ngn cik Tree mula mengorak langkah. Hajat mahu ke Khlong Hae Floating Market, nk sampaikan hajat tu kat local punyalah susah..sampai kena tunjuk gambar nih.. barulah diberitahu, Khlong Hae hanya dibuka pada Jumaat-Ahad dari pukul 3/4pm ke 9pm.

 

Sudahnya, kami tukar plan dan terus mencari transport ke Samila Beach. Mulanya memang risau, sebab daerah Southern of Thai ni mmglah wilayah bergolak. Bom sana sini, esp kat Muslim. Even buku yg aku beli pun tak encourage tourists ke sana. Perlu report kat polis bagai.. Tapi, kami percaya niat kami baik dan alhamdulillah, tak ada aral yang melintang.

 

Sunnguh aku terkezut, mini van yg aku naik dari bus stop Hatnyai ke Songkhla hanya charge 30B/pax. Minivan tu boleh kata agak selesa, tak sesak-sesak (compare with the one in Ao Nang to Hatnyai) dan untuk perjalanan yg mengambil masa lebih kurang 1jam setengah . Mungkin murah sebab bukan tourist attraction kot... kottt ok! 

 

OKlah, buat masa ini, aku titipkan entri ni dulu k. InsyaAllah ada masa aku sambung lagi. Kerja aku pun dah menimbun ni.. Salam, jumpa lagi!

 

*p/s:http://backpackies.com/?pager/show/p=10&t=hat_yai link utk backpakers

mahu baca entri2 yang sebelum ni? klik sini:

PART TWO:http://kasehselasih.blogspot.com/2012/11/31-songkhla-southern-of-thailand.html

PART THREE:http://kasehselasih.blogspot.com/2012/11/32-songkhla-southern-of-thailand.html

darah daging

Kau dan aku

ibarat darah dan daging

 

i would never giving up on you!

 

*p/s: let me be your friend till Jannah, insyaAllah...

#29) Tanjung Tuan (Cape Rachado), Port Dickson ~ 10 Jun 2012

Salam semua.. seperti yg di janjikan, yours truly akan cuba sedaya upaya utk siapkan entri2 tertangguh.

 

This trip is one of 'takde kerja cari kerja' kind of weekend. Disebabkan perasaan bosan yang mengular di segenap raga, aku dan Cik Tree decide to make a full of our weekend. Port Dickson off we go!!

 

Sesudah Isya', kami pun menuju ke destinasi kami dengan hanya berbekalkan balance bekalan hiking yg ada dalam simpanan. Sampai kami di Laguna Biru (Blue Lagoon), terus kami ushyar port nk setup fly. Angin kuat, tapi tak mematahkan semangat kami nk bermalam di tepian pantai.

tadaa!!! presenting our five star room ;) 

Bak kata pepatah, "kalau takut dilambung ombak, jangan berumah di tepi pantai", ini bukan setakat ombak, ribut pasir malam pun ada malam tu. Tengok aksi kami yg ala-ala daredevil tu, sekumpulan budak-budak lelaki lebih kurang 20 org (aku rasa bdk2 kolej..muka jambu sgt2 semuanya..kihkihkih) datang set up diorang punya fly besebelahan kami. Haha, here comes the entertainment show. Kelakar tengok bdk2 ni.. dah macam rombongan sekolah pulak.

 

Malam tu, bbrp kali aku terjaga (dan terus hidupkan api masak megi..hehe).. dan kali terakhir aku terjaga, dah hampir pukul 7. So, layan sunrise. Eh? Mane sunrise-nyer?? keciwa.. takde sunrise yg dapat dikesan. :(

 

Selesai breakfast lebihkurang, kami pun packing barang. Gamat betul pagi tu. Ada pulak team oren yg buat hari keluarga.. hehe

 



Team Oren!!

Dengan moto 'redah jerr', Tanjung Tuan here we go!! Dikatakan terbinanya Rumah Api ni sejak kurun ke -16, di zaman Portugis menakhluki Melaka yakni dalam lingkungan tahun 1511. Rumah Api di bina di Tanjung Tuan kerana kedudukannya yang strategik untuk guide kapal-kapal melalui Selat Melaka yang sempit dan terlindung.

Pada 1641, rumah api ini diserah pulak kepada Belanda and later to British.

Kalau dulunya hanya sebagai penanda arah bagi kapal-kapal di Selat Melaka, sekarang ni menara tambahan telah dibina bagi tujuan memantau trafik di Selat selain memegang radar MEASAT.

Peace!!

Entrance

No no no!!

Setiap pengunjung dikenakan bayaran sebanyak RM1 sahaja dan perlu mencatit di log book. Aku ni buat muka sadin aje tanya macam-macam sampailah org tu yg awalnya layan tak layan aje kami terus layan buat borak. kehkehkeh.. cik abang sekalian, janganlah memandang luaran seseorang itu sahaja..meskipun kami ni nmpak kecik dan brutal, tapi sebenarnya hati kami besar dan lembut.

Info centre

Berbekalkan penerangan yg diperolehi, kami mula meredah semak dan memasuki kawasan hutan simpan Cape Rachado. Memang ada trek jalan tar yg disediakan, tapi aku ngn Cik Tree rindukan trekking, dalam sejam pun jadilaaa... kihkihkuh..Sereyesly, mmg tak byk org yg lalu laluan hutan. Jejak kaki yg baru hampir tiada. nil. ape lagi, jalan laju2 laa... :p 

pokok ara

apa kat blakang tuh???

Trek yg lama terbiar...

 Jalan laju-laju, dalam setengah jam kami tembus pulak di trek tangga ini. fuh... Oh ya, lupa pulak Tanjung Tuan jugak famous spot for birdwatching. So, for thosewho interested, don't forget to bring your binocular!

yeayy!!! sampai!!

 

Rumah Api Tanjung Tuan

Pusat migrasi burung-burung

 Berbekalkan semangat yg masih belum pudar (katenyerrr), kami rintis ke Pulau Intan. Juga tempat yg jarang dikunjungi..

Pulau Intan boleh diakses dengan menuruni beberapa anak tangga. Perjalanan relaks, kami sampai ke pantai lebih kurang 15-20 minit daripada Rumah Api.

pantai yg lebih bersih!!

siput comel

sereyesly tenang sgt!

terserempak ngn bbrp kaki pancing

flora

lumut

 Masih tak puas, aku ternampak pulak tanda arah ke Bukit Batu Putih..(smile)

 

 Trekking lagi... dalam 30-40 minit akhirnya jumpalah the so called Batu Putih! Cantikk! 360' view of the nearby seaside... tapi disebabkan super panas, aku ngn cik Tree tidaklah berlama-lama..

menuju puncak

tu dia Blue Lagoon

berlatarbelakangkan Laut Selat Melaka

 Alhamdulillah, aku ngn cik Tree sgt berpuas hati dengan trip redah jee kali ni. Mungkin lain kali, lain destinasi..tak perlu plan pun jadi jugak.. kihkihkih.. Salam.

 

 

*p/s: niat hati nk teruskan lagi menyelongkar isi Tanjung Tuan ni, tapi perut dah berdondang sayang.. tapelah, insyaAllah satu hari kami datang lagi :)  

#28) Trip to Krabi, Thailand (20.1.12 - 24.1.12)

For this trip, we managed to spend not more than RM600/person, a sum which is inclusive of our Hotel, Return Ticket, Transportation, Island Tour/Hopping package, Jungle Trekking via elephant ride-Emerald Pool-Tiger Cave Temple package (seriously forgotten the exact tour package name).

And by 'we', i meant me, Cik Ya and Cik Mee.

I personally regard this trip as a diversion to what i am going through at that point of time in my life.

Well, we started off our journey in Puduraya, taking our night bus to Sungai Petani. A friend of Cik Ya comes and pick us up and later drop us at behind Malaysian border, Sadao, Thailand. Yuhuu... it's Thailand mann!! SAWADEEKAAA... :)

Cik Mee with her bagpack

From Sadao, we took mini van (or maybe mini bus?? ergh, just stick with mini van for easier understanding i guess.. LOL) to Hadnyai.

From Hadnyai, we took another long journey straight to Ao Nang also vide a mini van. 4-5hours journey.. well guys, if you want to travel overland, don't complain on the loooongg journey ok.. (exception for the first timer like me.. boley?)

And because this is my first time doing overland, i forgot to jote down every details of the journey.. huhu :( sedih!

So, let the pictures tells u all ... enjoy!!



Hadnyai Bus Station : where you can deposit your luggage for minimal charges



"tuktuk"

 Another ride vide "tuktuk" to reach Ao Nang.. fuhh...

travelling buddy : Cik Mee and Cik Ya

Finally we found a shelter... yeayy!! City Orange Mansion. 1,200Bath/first night and 1,100Bath for subsequent night (plus an extra bed).. yup, expensive, but given its a Chinese New Year Holidays and the owner is very welcoming and helpful (moreover a Muslim's stay), we don't bother to bargain more. ( or maybe just too tired to ask for a better deal).

 

I did'nt know much about other bagpackers, but us being a cheapskate, prefer to bring our own kitchen and groceries. Hell yeah, it saves a lot of money from dining outside! We have a luxurious dinner, lunch, breakfast and even tea time! All with "home-sweet-home" seal!

 

Enough said, morning comes early in Thailand. We have book the Island Tour/Hopping (Barracudas Tour) package (booked through our host) for 1000Bath/pax. Gathered in Railey Beach, we have visited a few island and snorkeling spot. What i can tell you that their landscape is beautifully crafted by God. Subhanallah...

 

My subject for the trip :p

Phi Phi Island



All inclusive in the package

She and her camera capturing moments

SPIDERS

peaceful indeed :)

Evacuation Route - Remember Tsunami??

Tahm Pya Nak - Viking Village (where bird nests is collected here)

Subhanallahh...

-peeking-

her first snorkeling

enjoying being in the sea

I think here in Krabi, i love their landscape and their Maya Island was beautiful! The only setback in Maya Island is the smell of its toilet....haiyaa people, if you want to do your business, please..i mean PLEASEEE do it and clean it properly!!

fishes are nice here.. but corals is so-so

feeding the fish - just before i say bye bye to the camera... :(

see, told ya, its damn beautiful!

inside Phi Phi Island

We came back from the tour much later in the evenning. Curious about the night activities here in Ao Nang, we walk almost 2-3km to reach the city. Nothing much, but you can get spa and massage treatment for quite a cheap price here. And you MUST try their pancakes! It come in various flavour such as banana chocolate, peanut, etc etc. Superb!!

Tomoi anyone??

night in Ao Nang

Sun rises. Night before, we have bought Jungle Trekking via elephant ride-Emerald Pool-Tiger Cave Temple package for 1100Bath/pax. This also is a one day trip.

their elephant ride

my elephant ride

bathing with elephant

scary moment when the elephant started to kiss u.. erk!

Actually, i didnt really like what i see the way they handle/train the elephants. they are using sharp tool to discipline the elephant and the elephant that performing in front of us is just a baby! Now i feel guilty to pay to see something like this. so cruel!

i feel bad for the elephants

Then, we proceed to Tiger Cave Temple. I seriously thought that we could see real live tiger. But no tiger around. No, i dont feel upset, i feel relieve instead. So no more abusive training for the endanger species. Fuhh..

Entrance to Tiger Cave Temple

The main tourist attraction in the temple complex is the 1,272 step climb up a limestone tower to see the "footprint of the Buddha".

The Stairs: Source

And of course, i did climb it all and took less than half an hour. But the climb itself might take longer depending on your stamina and if you have fear for monkeys (like me), just beware!! they are everywhere.. 

 

So, at the summit, you can see the whole view of Krabi Island and of course the Buddha itself.

Krabi Town from up ahead

Serious Buddha

Buddha from side

Sleeping Buddha

Laughing Buddha??

Then, we were brought to the Hot Spring. Unfortunately, by this time i already got migraine so i couldn't enjoy it so much.

To Hot Springs

Our lunch is inclusive in the package. Awesome lunch i would say. Apart from the three of us, there are like 5-6 other europeans in the group. Maybe Thai's food does not suit their apetite, we have to finish the rest of the food on their behalf..oops, did i say "have to"..hahahaa!!

Catch for the Day

Once we finish our food, we proceed to Emerald Pool. yup, the water is emerald colour..literally! We have to walk about 15 minutes to reach the pool. But, i dont have the picture of the pool, since cik ya has taken like forever to pass to me all the pictures taken. :p

Emerald Pool

Too clear??

When we got back to our hotel, all drained up. We sleep early that night. Tomorrow, another long journey.. huhu..

The journey from Ao Nang to Hadnyai wasn't pleasant at all. enough said. or maybe i'm just missing my home sweet home. :(

*p/s: i'm proud to be malaysian. i am.