21st June 2021,
i found you again. a corner of myself. life is up and down. i am still living with my beloved husband and two child. i have had one miscarriage and one forced abortion. Last year i had a bells palsy. This year i had a cyst. Both were gone now at the time i'm writing you this. For good, i hope.
i have left my job of almost 10 years. i don't have much savings. the best decision i have made so far behind all these mess. for the first time in my life, i am able to choose for myself. for better or worse.
the depression i thought gone, have never went away. often i found myself looking through the window with empty feelings. most of the time, i feel lost. i guess, things happen to me is for a reason. i don't know what is the reason. but i try to deal with it, in my own way. i survive, till this date. i put my trust in His plan. i always reason with myself, "that is ok".
oh yes, we are living in pandermic now. Malaysia has been living with the so called "lockdown" on and off since 18th March 2020. the world has changed. nothing is the same since.
p/s: those '2020 VISION' that we had during our school days is just a dream.
Hugsss.
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