Wednesday, May 11, 2011

has anyone ever forgive you?

I stayed behind with Bernadette. For a long time, neither of us spoke. My head ached. My eyes burned. My stomach was a sour ball of fire.


"I'm sorry," Bernadette said,"about your son."

I touched her arm, the way she might have touched mine. "I'm sorry about what Dr Matt did to Leon."

"He almost killed me, too, you know. I can't have anymore children." she made an odd, rueful face, as if she'd broken something meaningless and small: a cup, a glass of figurine. "But I just couldn't hate him anymore.

"But you do," I said. "Of course, you do. Anybody would."

"I forgive him, Meggie," she said. "i forgave him years ago."

"Well, what if he hadn't been sorry?" I said, and I thought of gaylee's daughter. I thought of Jeanie, alone in the world. I thought of Cindy Ann at her kitchen table, drinking wine, breathing air, while Evan's body rotted in the ground.

"He wasn't sorry," Bernadette said. "He never apologized, not once. To this day, he insists it was all accident, a misunderstanding involving procedure. i forgive him for that, too. I forgive him. Me. This has nothing to do with him."

My teeth were chattering wildly. "Jeanie was right," I said. "you are deluding yourself. No one can forgive something like that."

Bernadette's face in the moonlight: pale. Her hair, in its braids, a corona of fire. Behind her, a flurry of stars filled the sky. "Hasn't anyone ever forgiven you," she said, "for something you shouldn't have done?

Something you have failed to do?"

She could have been painted on velvet. She could have been a vision, described in a papyrus scroll. she
could have been looking into my heart and reading every last thing ever written there.

"Not like that," I said.

"Are you certain?"she said.


I opened my mouth, then closed it. Got up. walked away.



**taken from Blue Water (by Manette Ansay)
http://www.amanetteansay.com/wordpress/books/blue-water/

Thursday, May 5, 2011

#2) Langkawi Island 29/5-1/6 2010

ini adalah journey yang kedua dipilih agak jauh dan lama sedikit disebabkan waktu ni aku baru sahaja menghabiskan zaman LLB aku..

tak banyak keluar peluh, tapi bagi aku adventure yg sgt best kerana inilah first time aku backpack travel.. (yerpp, memang gedikss..)

actually, tak payah pergi jauh-jauh, kat Semenanjung Malaysia ni banyak sangat tempat yang menarik.. dan lokasi yang paling strategik untuk beginner macam aku ni, mestilah Langkawi.. =)

kami travel by train (to save cost and to get the 'feel' being tourist).. just after my bestie wedding di Kuantan.


seronok sangat.. tapi sejuknye komainn lagi... *-*

sampai je di Kuala Kedah, aku berkeras nak naik bas..almaklumlaa, kalau di KL ni, dah tak ada peluang nak naik bas lagi dah.. (ceit padahal, malas nak berebut-rebut..hehe) Aku ni, kalau dah kat tempat orang, agak jakun sikit..so, agak-agak sakit mata tengok fotogediks aku, abaikan je laa eh..
 

setelah sampai dan rehat, kami mulakan journey kami dengan mendaki Hutan Lipur Telaga Tujuh.. boleh tahan mencabar gak, sebab tak cukup training.. ntah berapa ratus anak tangga yang kami daki dalam hujan..


alamak, tersenget pulak..silalah sengetkan kepala anda sendiri yekk.. dah dua tiga kali aku upload, still mcm ni jugak..hehe..
seterusnya, kami menuju ke Tanjung Rhu.. pemandangan yang sangat cantik sepanjang perjalanan.. dek kerana nak lebih thrill, kami membonceng sebuah skuter.. silalah cuba pengalaman ini ye kawan-kawan..memang heaven!  


 sampai saja di Tanjung Rhu, kami terus book untuk explore gua-gua, eagle feeding, island hopping.. tersangatlah teruja! one advise, sila pergi direct ke kaunter untuk mendapatkan pricing yang menarik.. sebabnya, sebelum ni kami booking online dan harganya 2-3 kali lebih mahal..(nasib baik boleh kensel..erkk)













 dan, tak lupa untuk menziarahi makam Mahsuri.. al-Fatihah..



kesimpulannya, percutian yang sangat menyeronokkan!
hadiah yang paling best untuk diri aku sendiri sempena tamat belajar! yeayyy!!!
(p/s: insyaAllah, will come again to visit Beras Terbakar as  didnt have enough time to do the last time..siapa kata Langkawi tu hanya untuk shopping sangat salah ok!)

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Wednesday, May 4, 2011

#1) Bukit Cerakah 3 & 17 Jan 2010

di sinilah segalanya bermula.. =)
dulunya aku sangat skeptikal terhadap aktiviti luar pintu (outdoor)..

pada aku, budak2 sport ni busuk (peluhnya..makk aiiii...) dan poyo (lagak cambest jee..)
walaupun yg sebenarnya aku malas nak admit yg aku ni lari gaya itik pencen and tak pernah lepas lompat tinggi, lompat jauh dan sewaktu dengannya..
setiap tahun waktu Hari Sukantara, akulah manusia pertama yg rasa nak menyorok dalam tandas skolah. 
cari alasan dan yang sewaktu dengannya..

tapi, aku pun silap.. sport ni bukan setakat lari (or lompat-lompat) kat trek or ramai-ramai rebut sebiji bola kat tengah-tengah padang.
jungle trekking, hiking, jogging, cycling, camping....tu sumer pun termasuk dalam kategori sport jugak.
haaa...yang ni baru aku suka, sebab tak perlu nak bersaing-saing nak tunjuk hebat. (baru tak poyo..hikhikhik)

dah lama sangat aku lupakan aktiviti luar pintu ni...rasanya since zaman pakai baju skola lagi..
bila dah lepas skola, risau sunburn-laa, busuk laa, takde membe laa (dan 1001 alasan lagi), tu yang buat aku lagi malas bersukan.


tapi, sejak kenal cik Tree, (yang badannya sasa, rautnya kasar tapi hatinya mulus), dipaksa-paksanya aku keluarkan peluh..

oh ya, anda sedang melihat fotogediks aku waktu aku awal-awal melibatkan diri di arena aktiviti luar pintu ni.. bermula dengan Bukit Cerakah pada 3/1/2010, aku telahpun mengenalpasti hobi baru ini.. =)

selain trekking, anda juga boleh cycling.. mula-mula, memanglah sangat penat (ya, aku pancit..) tapi, once you get to know the music, you'll definitely sing with it.. =)




dan akhirnya setelah dibujuk dan dirayu domba, akhirnya aku terjerat dan terjebak juga..

dan atas cadangan bonda untuk aku titipkan segala aktiviti luar pintu yg telah aku lakukan, maka inilah intro yang tak seberapa untuk tatapan kalian (berangan ada followers la kononnyerr) dan kenangan buat aku juga mereka-mereka yang terlibat.. =) 







latest info, i heard ada Sky Trex Adventure.. hehe, can't wait to try that one!


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