Selamat Hari Ayah!

Sejak kecil lagi, kami dibelai-belai..ditatang bagai minyak yang penuh..tatkala orang lain mempersoalkan betapa zaman kecil mereka terabai dek kesibukan ibu bapa memenuhi keperluan anak-anak, aku bersyukur...(dan aku rasa kakak aku yang dua orang tu pun setuju sangat-sangat =p)

walau rumah kami tak besar; 
ia tetap dapat melindungi dari panas dan hujan..
walau pernah makan di TGI Friday's atau The Ship;
tak kira apa jenis lauk, masakan rumah tetap No.1..
walau sekarang kami boleh memacu kenderaan sendiri;
pengalaman kena kepit pintu bas dan sakit kepala tidur dalam bas ekspress takkan pernah dilupa;
walau kami semua terpaksa menanggung beban hutang PTPTN;
kami semua berjaya mendapatkan ijazah di bidang masing-masing..
walau kami semua belajar di IPTA tempatan;
kami seronok dapat membuat bonda tersenyum bangga..
walau kami semua tak banyak bicara;
kami masih menghormati antara satu sama lain..

walau kami membesar hanya dengan bonda;
rumah kami tetap ceria, makan kami tak pernah kurang, kasih sayang tak pernah hilang..
bonda pun boleh jadi electrician, mekanik, cikgu, carpenter, chef, kaunselor..
bonda kami multi-tasker..

jadi, tak salahlah sempena Hari Ayah ini, aku tujukan khas buat bonda yang tengah layan cucu-cucunya di ruang tamu tu.. sebab, bonda bukan setakat ibu, ayah, cikgu, kaunselor, chef, mekanik, carpenter mahupun electrician.. bonda adalah segalanya, dan segalanya adalah bonda! terima kasih bonda!

 oh ya, Selamat Hari Ayah; BONDA!

rambling..

aku tak suka betul perasaan ni..dan aku sgt benci jd penggangur..i have to start looking for a job! yet, i dont know how to begin...

NOW I KNOW!

at last, i've proven to myself that my capability to learn and understand things are pretty much the same with other people..now i know, all this while not that i can't do things, but i don't try harder...thanks to some people, who dare to touch my guts and push me beyond my standard limits (or at least i thought so) ... now i know, i can do more if i think less..=)

well, for me its not the destination, it will always be the journey. and somehow, i silently pray that one day, i will be good for you, and you will be proud of me..mom (the one who believes the destination is all that matters). i love you still, and always like ever!

dear bonda,
last night, i've made you smile with the news while you awake at 3 a.m. Alhamdulillah..

before the moment~

its not new..but it will never be lame..
all the excuses, are meant to be exploited
and who are we to judge
and no one can be blame for not able to compromise

yet..
everyone have their own egos and wonders
you say you wont criticize
you merely discussing
is it right?
is it wrong?

i sat and watch
i am only a bird without ability to fly
what more can i do...