ironinya...(kisah uda & dara)

*ini adalah kisah uda & dara zaman moden..


"kita sama2 janji utk setia dan xkan sakitkan ati each other okeh!"
"okeh sayang!"

di suatu pagi..
"dear, siapa **** ni? why dia slalu msg2 u camtu?"
"yang, bende2 ni sumer bermusim..syg jgnla risau..hati ni utk u sorg jerr..i x layan dia pun..he's not more than a fren.."
"klo dia sms u lg, i bls teruk2 baru u tau. cam yg u slalu bls msg2 i tu..hehe"
"alaa..tu pun skali je i bls sms u.. n i ada instinct yg gurl tu got something on u..n i am rite isn't it..(sinically)"
"ya lorr..that one i x deny..but then u also have to remember, that i reserve myself for u n u only dear"

tengahari, hari yg sama...
"dear, i nk smoking sat"
"okeh.. i masuk dlu..kat luar panaslaa..kt dlm ada air-cond..sejukk...(smiling)"
'(dlm hati)aih..lambatnyer masuk..smoking ke buat ape tuh! ish, dia sms dgn sapa lak tu? Question..Question.. Question.. i have a bad feeling'
"ha, td msg ngn sapa?"
"huh? mn ada..jz tengok ada msg msuk or not..apala u ni..(smiling again).."
"okay then"
'jgn sampai i caught u red handed suda.. please God, i hope u r being nice to me'

petang, hari yang sama...
"jap yang, i nk beli barang sket kat kedai"
"okayh..i ikut"
.................................
'err...ni ex aku! alamak... Ya Tuhan, moga2 tidak ada perkara buruk yang berlaku'
"awak..saya da menggigil nih!"
"sabarla wak...da memang kebetulan.. kter x plan pun jumpe dia kat sini....jgn mara ye.."
"sy mmg tgh sabar ni..boley pulak sy senyum kat dia, dia buat mker sombong..#%^$%@ !!"
....hmmm.....

malam, hari yang sama juga...
tet tet ...(mesej masuk)...
"nk bc!"
"xbley..biar i tengok dlu"
"nak jugak! (rampas handphone)"

text: masih di bangsar village?
from: ***

"nah..amik la balik.."
"dear, awk ok x ni?(serba salah)"
"so, btul la td awk ada ber-sms wit someone?"
....
"i've told u so many times before.. if u wanna cheat on me, up to u..just don't ever let me know..BUT if i figure it out myself, u'll be a dead meat!"
"sorry syg..its nothing..she just wanted to know ..."
"stop! i don't wanna hear anymore explanation. time for explaining already over. i've ask about it before aite?!(now u were caught red handed..u expect me to believe ur shit anymore?)"
"please don't go dear..i won't ever let u go!"
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a few moments later..
"syg..i will forgive...but i won't forget"
"dear......"
"enough...end of discussion."

the irony..
dara still loves uda no matter what.
uda; though he loves dara so much he still is repeating the same mistake over and over again.

conclusion;
love is a funny thing~

"because i really need it"

this is a true story.. she' s a girl with so many dreams.. she grew up with love and hate.. she grow to become a cheerful, loving yet there's a hole in her heart.. very dark hole she kept down in her heart so no one is able to see...

time passes...none of her dreams come true.............(or should i say..yet?). she kept telling herself that she is doing fine. but she began to wonder, why are certain things are only for certain people. and why she can't be 'that' kind of person.

she's envy of time..it keeps running no matter what. she on the other hand always get stuck in the middle of the road..she keeps on pushing herself over the limit till she got worned off in order to be at 'par'..

who set the 'par'? no one had told her about it when she was once a happy girl and had so many dreams and plans ahead. no one had told her that she has to be humiliated, embarassed, fooled, hate, cry just to get back to the track.

she will never be the same person that she used to be.

she will never had dreams anymore..

no one will sing her lullaby..

she sings her own songs.

and when a friend ask her why she always said that she loves a fresh start, she will answer her "because i really need it".

botol kicap, dolfin, ayam & redbull

rentetan mggu ini..

• aku di gelar botol kicap oleh Cik Jij..err...Cik jij, napela mesti botol kicap..dan tak tahulah aku gelaran itu dengan niat suci (bona fide) ataupun niat tidak suci (mala fide)..kononnya kerana aku makin kurus..err....tang mane yg aku mcm botol kicap ni?

• aku rs down sgt this few weeks..mostly for my academic capability...but then a friend had told me to stop whining and imagine myself as a "d"olphin...one fine day, i will be able to transform myself as become one "a"yam!! (hopefully...insyaAllah).
  
  
  
  
  

• hari-hari aku kini ditemani cik Lembu Merah Kurang Gula (LMKG)~ terimas utk cik La & cik Tree yg slalu marahkn aku yang berskandalkan cik LMKG..sesungguhnya, walaupun aku tahu niat murni mrk yg risaukan kesihatan aku yg agak terjejas akibat per-skandal-an ini (as if ayat itu wujud), aku tetap tak kisah..

" ur like a drug to me..like my own personal brand of heroin.." (TwilightSeries)

• kesimpulannya, aku slalu stress sehinggakan aku tak mahu lgsg jengah apa2 kerja skolah di hujung mggu..cukup2lah ok.
• okeh..cukuplah aku merapu dan meraban hari ini..sekian.
  
  
  
  
  

gegaran telefon bonda

hari ni, bonda telefon aku..aku dlm bilik Tuan Criminal, lalu, ku biar shj gegaran tanpa bunyian itu berlalu..hati kecil berkata-kata..

tak pernah2 bonda telefon aku time skola..ni msti ada hal pnting ni..

aku tahu, aku bukanlah anak yg terbaik yg bonda pernah ada..waima, aku slalu aje dtgkan masalah..(kekandaku yg 2 org tu slalu je ckp aku ni untung...manje lebey...tapi bonda slalu aje back-ing aku, "da rezeki dia.."-terimas bonda! aku sayang bonda sgt2!!)

berbalik kepada cerita asal, keluar dari bilik Tuan Criminal aku terus miskol bondaku..tak sampai 5 min kemudian telefonku bergegar kembali, tertera nama bonda di skrin.

aku : halussss...semekom..
bonda : walaikumsalam..ko g mn td?
aku : ada kt blk lctrr la ma..ngape?
bonda : xdela...ko sehat? da mkn?
aku : (terharu kjp..tak gune btol aku ni, cm xnk ckp ngn bonda je..mintak ampun bonda, anakmu ni xde niat nk kurang ajar..) eh..sehat...da, td mkn roti canai pg td (terimas utk cik Tree di atas sumbangan beliau..susah2 aje bgun pg2 hntr roti canai tersebut.. ;D)
bonda : laa, roti sejuk?
aku : aah...arini klas full la ma..
bonda : ma nk cerita, ma da tempah perabot utk umah kter..delivery 13mac ni.. ko blk x?
aku : umm...xtau lg arr..ma tau je laa, klas slalu dorg buat in-promptu..xley nk ckp laa..ma da beli ape?
bonda : ma beli sofa, meja mkn, bla bla bla...
aku : waaa....bgus2...cepatnyer ma?
bonda : ma da tengk skali perabot2 putih yg ko nk..xbyk..kne pandai cari laa..klo ko blk 13mac tu, bley kter cari brg ko skali......


aku xtau nk ckp cmner.. yg nyata, sejak aku bgtau bonda yg aku akn berhijrah ke Melaka utk temani masa tua bonda, bonda sungguh eksaited..ntahla, sampai hari ni aku masih berkata2 dgn keputusan aku sndr..aku sejak lahir, membesar kat kl..not to brag being brought up in KL, aku selesa kat sini..and now, aku blaja hdup sendr kat area Selangor (which is not so much dffrnt with KL lorhh)..dan aku sedar, sikit sebanyak, since aku decide utk xtggal ngn fmly n try to live on my own aku da jarakkan dr ngn fmly..lupa dirikah aku?

masa mendewasakn aku...tp, smpai saat ni, aku masih lagi belajar..perjalanan hidup ni xprnh hbis..bonda, maafkan aku..aku byk buat bonda sedih..aku sayang bonda..sgt sgt...aku slalu sgt lawan ckp bonda, like i knw things better, but deep down aku tahu bonda lebih tahu..

why do i decide to move with u in melaka? well, simply just one reason.

AKU TAK MAHU MENYESAL DI KEMUDIAN HARI...