Almost forty
And I feel empty
Looking back
This is the way I always been
Empty lonely sorry
Don't get me wrong
I always love my family
But I don't know why there is always a void within me
Which I tried to escape so many times
But only to return back to how it used to be
Do you remember
The days when we used to walk aimlessly
And we run with no destination set
We just go forward
Without looking back, left or right
Do you remember
We don't even have to hold our hands
Or crack open those witty thoughts
Our head sync naturally
Nothing written but the ideas always met
Do you remember
There are times when I couldn't get up
And the times when you fell too deep
We couldn't reach other
But somehow we manage to understand one another
And we become closer than ever
I used to think
No matter where life took us
There will be one or two of your person
Singing along the song you sang
Dreaming and cheering till the day you grey
..and silly me
I thought you are 'my person'
...
So now, I kept telling to my kids
People come and go
Nothing last forever
As human err
Forgiveness doesn't comes easy
I am letting go one good offer for me to expand my career.
The one I have been praying for.
Tapi, rezeki Allah tu luas.
Dan Allah lebih mengetahui sesuatu itu lebih daripada kamu.
No turning back.
Allah is the best planner.
mimpi bapak?
aku nak bayangkan pun tak mampu.. inikan pula mimpi
Allah, salahkah aku berasa sebegini?
agaknya bila perasaan ini akan pergi?
cemburukah
bencikah
menyampahkah
sedihkah
hilang fokus bila disaji apa yang ku nafi
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sampai bila?
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agaknya apa pula rasa pahlawanku yang dua lagi
adakah peperangan mereka sudah berakhir?
atau masih seperti aku
mungkin lebih
mungkin kurang..
Aku teringin duduk semeja
tapi tak pernah jumpa meja yang sama
dan masa tak pernah ada
walau duduk di ruang yang sama
