Thursday, September 26, 2024

Almost 40

Almost forty

And I feel empty


Looking back

This is the way I always been

Empty lonely sorry


Don't get me wrong

I always love my family

But I don't know why there is always a void within me

Which I tried to escape so many times

But only to return back to how it used to be

Monday, September 23, 2024

There's nothing wrong with me... Is it?

 Do you remember 

The days when we used to walk aimlessly 

And we run with no destination set

We just go forward 

Without looking back, left or right


Do you remember

We don't even have to hold our hands

Or crack open those witty thoughts

Our head sync naturally 

Nothing written but the ideas always met


Do you remember 

There are times when I couldn't get up

And the times when you fell too deep

We couldn't reach other

But somehow we manage to understand one another

And we become closer than ever


I used to think 

No matter where life took us

There will be one or two of your person 

Singing along the song you sang 

Dreaming and cheering till the day you grey


..and silly me

I thought you are 'my person'

...



So now, I kept telling to my kids

People come and go

Nothing last forever

As human err

Forgiveness doesn't comes easy




Monday, August 26, 2024

Let go, let God

I am letting go one good offer for me to expand my career.

The one I have been praying for.

Tapi, rezeki Allah tu luas.

Dan Allah lebih mengetahui sesuatu itu lebih daripada kamu.

No turning back.

Allah is the best planner.


Thursday, June 27, 2024

home

abang, kalau ayang jadi burung?
abang akan jadi sangkarnya

kalau ayang jadi semut?
abang akan jadi sarangnya

abang, kalau ayang jadi lebah?
abang jadi madunya




......above all.. you can be anything.. but you chose those that made me return to ... always.. a home :)

Saturday, February 24, 2024

2024

another lost.. missed pregnancy..
and friendship?

welcome 2024
i am ready
for better or worst
insyaAllah

An answered prayers

Good morning, husband All those morning feels incomplete If you weren't by my side I'm watching you sleep, stroking your eyebrows an...