Friday, December 22, 2017

when you pull your trigger, someone will definitely die

how much fierce you want me to be
do you want me to change my nature?
do you want me to be something i am not?
do you want me to be that unhappy?

if you want me to be all out fiery and all
you should know
it is not because i want to pleased you
it simply because i hate you

and you know what people do when they hate something?

they would walk away.




Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Suicidal

Depression and Mental illness is no joke. It is not necessarily for you to look like a retard or a psycho, you may be totally look fine, happy and normal but only you know that you are fooling yourself.

First time I had a suicidal intention when i was 14yrs old. That phase continue on and off until i graduated from my law school. Only few people knew about it back then, how i found peace in self-harm. But none knew i only recovered quite recently, the time i have you both my miracle babies.

To confidently says there will be no more dark episode in my life, i dare not to say. I hope that i have close that chapter for good.

See, my point is this. People come from all side of life, and you will never know their back story. Everyone is fighting their own demons. Just because they are breathing, doesn't mean that they are living.

Depression is real.

Suicidal is real.

Get help.

Friday, December 15, 2017

some people have to work their ass off to be noticed
others can thanks to their ancestor for the benefit of today

this is an animal kingdom

where the fittest survive! 

An answered prayers

Good morning, husband All those morning feels incomplete If you weren't by my side I'm watching you sleep, stroking your eyebrows an...