self abused

Ever heard of it? i knew it long. i've even been there.

This movie describe it best...

p/s: i want to write further.. but have things to do. sorry!~

running with chores every morning

as much as i am irritated with you,
i still love you..
like a human-and-air relationship.
husband, why you are so selamba when it comes to torture me every morning!
grrrrr!!!!

when things getting quieter..

i think, on the bright side, i've started to venture out my friends list.

6.9.2013

i remember every tears that you wipe for me.. and every tears you fought so it won't show to anyone else..on that day.

you keep on telling yourself, that you won't lose me
like a mantra

and i steadily convince myself
i am forever the same

.

..

...

look at where we are now
staring on each other
missing one another
only from distance

cause both of us have an everest of ego
but no one have the guts to climb it

yet.

As lonely I am.. I still have my children to keep me company.. as pitiful I feel myself, I still have my husband to remind me of my existence.

Yet, I feel the emptiness when u are officially unfriend-ed me.