...of 2015

If you follow my blog, you would realize that i didn't put any recap for 2014. The reason being is, i truly hope that i would have a long and merry writings on recap for 2015 which mark my age as 30. BUt then, once i've started writing, this post won't be that long. huhu.

Yes, i am now 30 years old (though in my heart my age stops at 26.. i dont know why..lol)

Being 30 makes me more sensitive on surrounding issue. At some point, i have became a blatant and ignorant person. i used to be careful in choosing my words in advising people, but now it seems giving an advise to people does not bring any good for my relationship with other people. as i just speak the evil truth (at least from my point of view). Maybe i should consider to stop giving free advise and save my opinion only to my chest.

i never thought that i get married before 30. i just plan to adopt a child if after 30 i am still single. but here i am, with one husband, one toddler and one more soon to complete our family of four.

i do not have my own car at my 30. the reason is because two car for one household is too much of a commitment. and also i've used the cash from the selling off my car to purchase my first property investment.. and without touching my EPF money! 

so, me and husband have purchase our first property together. insyaAllah if everything goes smoothly, we'll have it around end of 2018.

in these 2 years, manage to travel outside Malaysia to:

• Bali, Indonesia (2014)
• Chiang Mai, Thailand (2015)

BUT i still have yet to visit the place i wanted most... Kaabah. I hope, my time will come soon... very soon.

manage to complete reading more than 10 books in 2015. which is quite an accomplishment for me.. yeayy!!

completed my 10km marathon run 1 times in 2014 and 2 times in 2015.

loses 8kg's from 56kg to 48kg after having a healthy meal and regular exercise. But now my current weight is 59kg (-.-"). 

so, that's it.

me being 30 on 2015..

People

You are so arrogant
By getting what you wish for
Hope it will bring to your best
And to your glory.. at least.

emotion

Emotion is a very powerful thirst. you can get away with everything.. your enemy, your friends, family, your life.. even your past.
But you cannot get away from whatever your emotion is.
It goes with you, sticking by you like a disease.

fobia

aku tak kuat..
takut sentiasa ada
setelah penat mengharung gelap pekat
memaksa diri dengan merangkak, menyeret, menghambat
aku tak mahu balik ke situ

risau itu sentiasa ada
sebab kadang-kadang
tercampak kembali ke lorong itu
dalam tanpa sedar

sebab aku takkan sedar

kalau Tuhan tak mahu aku sedar

kalau Tuhan tak mahu aku lagi

selagi aku tak belajar

mahal betul kos yang perlu ditanggung

aku takut..
aku risau..

habit baru

Sebelum tidur, Hana mesti cium mulut aku berkali-kali tanpa disuruh. Lagi-lagi kalau dah gelap. Maybe tu cara Hana say goodnight. Asbab cium dalam gelap tu maybe sebab dia pemalu.. pemalu yang brutal.

i love you, anak.